Hey Nerds.

Today I got a mixture of good and bad news. The good news was a document I’ve been waiting for finally came in. But the bad news is I have to provide yet another thing in order for the process to go smoothly. So right now my husband and I are in the process of trying to buy a house. We’ve been waiting for the appraisal after many hurdles along the way. Now when we finally get it, there’s something else that’s needed in order for us to be able to close. This whole process has been mentally draining and emotionally exhausting. I keep asking God what’s the end goal. Because it seems that He wants us to be in this location and this house. But this whole process has been frustrating. I know God will use situations to stretch your faith, but man this is the most I’ve ever been stretched.

I’m usually a pretty private person so it’s taken a lot to even mention this on the site. But today I couldn’t really focus on anything other than this so that’s what I’m writing about. I just want y’all to know that it’s hard out here man. Even when you feel like God’s called you to something. My husband and I both felt strongly about this house. Especially when everything else fell through. It seemed like we finally had our answer. But if this is the answer, this journey has been so tough. At times like these I wish I could fast forward to the finish line. To get past the hardship but I know that’s not how God operates.

Despite how I’m currently feeling about the situation, I want to trust God. And I need His help in alleviating my doubts. I tend to operate out of a fear of things going wrong and for once I’d like to look for things to go right. There’s so much that could go wrong, but I want to focus on all the things that could go right. I don’t know, I’m sure some of you may view this as naive or a waste of time. But I don’t want to give up yet. I want to keep believing that this will work out. We’ve been down such a long road already. I want to believe that it wasn’t all for nothing.

Well that’s all I got for today. Keep nerding out